lunabuna: (friends - XD)
Oh... my god... this comment and its responses... I lol'd so hard...

For the linkophobes:

Comment 1: I was at my OB/GYN a few weeks ago and a new moo had her baybee. The kid burped. She looked at me and said, "Oh, isn't that precious?" And I said, "My dog farted, do you think that's cute, too?" I have a service dog for a seizure disorder. She shut up fast. :D

Comment 2:
I actually think it's fantastically funny when my dog makes an audible fart because she usually looks in the direction of her butt with a "wtf" face.

Childfree comm, you slay me.
lunabuna: (sonic - sonic2 tails)
...People don't know what it means when they say "scarlet letter?"  Really?  I thought The Scarlet Letter was widely read in high school.  Did only the honors English students read it?  Am I missing something?

Also.. random poll!

[Poll #1415844]
lunabuna: (pokemon - articuno's pretty)

Stolen from Aqua.

Long. )

lunabuna: (sonic - bean/bark d'oh!)

Insomnia totally sucks.

But dude, I'm afraid of the religious/anti-religion wank that this will ensue.  Don't do it, world! Don't fall victim to petty quarrels!

lunabuna: (Default)
[Error: unknown template qotd]The only recurring dreams I get are nightmares. They're always different, but involve the same crap each dang time.

-House burning down from a wild fire and not having enough time to save my pets/computer/prized possessions.
-Getting nuked, but being far enough away from the blast to not die immediately and to see it and be afraid of it.
-Watching a commercial plane crash.  It always spins or dives or something nasty beforehand, too.
lunabuna: (sonic - that's no good!)
Meh, anybody know of a good PHP (or whatever) coding that would let me upload images to my own website without all the hassle of creating thumbnails and updating each page and all that junk?  I'm having difficulty finding something via Google and could use some recommendations.  A lot of the galleries don't allow for comments, which I really want.
lunabuna: (nights - starry night)
Tetris Attack/Panel De Pon tournaments. Y/Y?

They released a patch that made PDP in English, so yay, I know what my chicks' names are, lol. Selene and ... OMG, I forgot the plant girl's name already. Suck.

I'm rusty. Keep getting owned by on-going Hard matches. I gotta remember all my tricks and get back in the groove to plow my way through Super Hard mode and get chains and chains and craptastic chains.


This game is so awesome. The music is great. I wish it was more widely known.
lunabuna: (x-files - waa gaahh!)
Okay, losing your flash drive that's required for your class and also containing irreplaceable art files?

NOT COOL, SELF. GODDAMNIT, LEEROY.
lunabuna: (random - i love mike)
Happy Valentine's Day and Singles Awareness Day, FList!

Know that I lub roo and you all rock!
lunabuna: (hp - cute - best mates)
1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

[livejournal.com profile] stellar_dust hit me up with an M!
1. Maggie Reilly - Moonlight Shadow (wow, okay... couldn't find an original music vid to the techno version of this, but what the luck, first I found was some fanvid to Doctor Who.)
2. Enigma - Mea Culpa (orig. music vid - great song, learned a lot of french from it. "Je te desire; prend-moi; je suis a toi")
3. Linkin Park - My December (can't find the original on youtube ANYWHERE. Fark.)
4. NiGHTS: Journey of Dreams - Merry Memory Go Round (my second favorite track from this game and probably one of my favorite video game tracks of all time. I don't normally like orchestral or instrumental, but this just blows me away.)
5. U2 - Mysterious Ways (eff yeah! Oldskool U2.)
lunabuna: (x-files - scully WTF)
I am NOT anorexic, goddamnit! >_<

WTF, one family member gets paranoid and now the whole family thinks it?

If anything, I've lost a bit of my appetite due to DEPRESSION. That IS a side-effect, and it's been known for years that I've got it.



Bugging me to eat more when I'm effing FULL does NOT make me feel any better! It makes me want to barf, actually! Sheesh, isn't that kinda counterproductive? I have a small stomach or something. I can't eat, like, a whole Burger King meal. Maybe a sandwich/hamburger or something and some water, but no, I can't finish the fries, and just the sandwich alone makes my stomach hurt as if I'd eaten too much.

What pisses me off is that people jump to these conclusions. Anyone ever consider an approach like "Gosh, Steph, you seem kinda skinny. How have your eating habits been?" Then I can answer with a "I've been depressed and have been lacking an appetite sometimes." And BELIEVE me. Don't just... like, insist there's got to be some eating disorder involved or some crap. If there's any disorder involved, aside from my head being a douche, it's my stomach's horrid irritability. I get nauseated over the stupidest things, and a lot of times it makes me puke. If I could keep the food down, believe me, I would. I HATE puking! Fuck, I'm not fat! Why would I want to do that sorta shit? My back hurts from sitting against a chair with no cushioning as it is. You think I want my bones to stick out any more so I can feel even MORE "zomg PAIN" along my vertebrae? That sucks, too!

Maybe it's the illusion my clothes give off. They think I look skinny because I'm bundled up in layers of baggy clothes. Baggy clothes are nice in the winter because I can double- or triple-up all I want and not be all bulgy and obvious about it. But they take one look at me and go "ZOMG MUST BE EATING DISORDER" and it's like... ingraved in their brains from then on. My hip bones and ribs have always protruded a little, peeps. This is nothing new. Quit poking around my body looking for justifications for your judgements.



I don't think people realize that this kind of attention is just as awkward and unsettling as bugging a person about how fat they are. What, do they WANT me to get all bent out of shape about my body image? Because that's where it's headed right now. I never had much of a problem except that I didn't want people to check out my curves (i.e. boobs.), hence the huge sweatshirt, but it serves a duel purpose as stated above. I don't want guys looking at me and thinking I'm something to bang. Look at me, be disinterested, and leave me alone. I could probably flaunt it because I'm skinny, sure, but I don't want to. Go hit on somebody else who likes the attention and is actually on the market for a guy or something.



sldkfjlsdkjfksjdflkjsdf FUUUUCK.
lunabuna: (x-files - !?)
Well, I'm a nutcase and decided I want to do the X-Files drinking game. By myself, if I have to.

I know my FList is like "WTF shut up Steph," but if anybody would like to participate... just, like, join me in an AIM convo and simultaneously watch a DVD episode or three and totally follow the rules here, that would make my week. It really would.

Leaving this un-friends-only just in case peeps are missing my psychobabble entries. I'm eager to get responses on this. I really am falling into a deep obsessive state that will most likely wear off by next Saturday. I like cashing in on my psychosis while I have it. :B

BTW, Thursday is probably a bad time because my entire day is booked, starting at 5am to 6pm straight, and I am going to be dead tired when it's all over.

Also, if peeps are interested and don't have alot of epis, I can send them via FTP or e-mail or something in WMV format because I have a ton recorded via my TV card from back when I couldn't afford the DVD sets.

Yes, I am going all out on this because I am THAAAAAT nuts.
lunabuna: (tetris - wtf GAME OVER)
[Poll #1326076]
lunabuna: (flcl - haruko disgusted)
Okay, WHAT THE FUCK, AIM is suddenly not able to connect.

Everything ELSE is working just fine-- internet and junk, but AIM is like... lul failure to communicate. I didn't touch ANY connection settings in my router, in my modem, in my wireless settings, in AIM, in ANYTHING.

Are their servers down or something? It was working JUST fine yesterday.
lunabuna: (sonic - bean bes unconscious)
Ghost Adventures is a frickin' awesome show. I caught a marathon on Halloween. Friggin' SPOOKY.  Spookier than Ghost Hunters. That show has a few too many people doing stuff, and it makes me wonder how many "scary sounds" are just the other crew members walking around.  That's just what I've gathered from watching both, though. Adventures has just 3 guys, and they are their own cameramen, whereas Hunters has the main hunters plus cameramen plus who knows what else.  So I think Adventures has more genuine data and findings.  There's really nobody else around to bang on pipes in the next room when all 3 guys are in the same room.  Of course, they could just have people feeding them "data," but meh, I choose not to subscribe to the Blair Witch theory. You'll know what I mean if you ever watched Making of Blair Witch Project.

The EV wave sounds are frickin' spooky on both shows, though.  Yeesh.

Yeah. A real reason to watch the Travel Channel.  Never had a reason to before, haha.

DUDE, MORK AND MINDY MARATHON!
lunabuna: (luna - floaty icon)

Hey kids, this journal is actually Friends Only, so if anyone actually -wanted- to be my friend and listen to my private convos with myself, I'd be more than happy to add you. I'm just posting this to double-check after my glorious demonstration of how NOT to use the admin console.

So, if you were friending me 'cuz you thought I was a SBG's IC journal, you probably want to un-add me.
If you're friending me 'cuz you know or like me personally, go ahead and make a comment here, a short comment if you want, and I'll probably add you to my Friends list.

Posting this cuz I got a slew of new friends adds over the past couple of days and wanted to clarify, 's all.



EDIT: Cheri brought up an interesting point that I thought I should clarify. I accidentally friended half the people in SBG by doing the Admin Console friend-add-alot thing, only I did it on this account instead of Bark's because I'm a genius like that. Right after I discovered my blunder, I went and reversed it all, so chances are this account doesn't have any of you friended. It's not that I don't want friends or anything, it's just that I automatically assumed you only friended me because you thought I was a character journal. *shrug*

If you genuinely want to be friends, that's cool. I like friends. :B I've just been in RPs where characters friending people from "teh reel world" is liek RAWR BANABLE so I didn't want to get anybody in trouble.
lunabuna: (wow - leuko (70 huntress))
I got a PM in DA from someone who says I ruined his/her life on my messageboard five years ago.  Um... okay? o_O  Says he/she wants to bury the hatchet, though makes cheap shots at me in the process.  Dude... I have NO idea who you are.  He/she drew me a fanart to "bury the hatchet" but kicks him/herself for doing it because, you know, he/she hates me.  OH-KAY...


Yeah, Mike and I have joined a raiding guild in WoW and have been running Karazhan all week.  Lucky for me, it starts right after I get off work.  I just got Stepherz to 70 this week and nabbed my attunement in no time.  If we weren't full up on healers, she could go on the raids, too. But I prefer to play my hunter anyway.

Someone backed into my car and left this monster scrape.  I am NOT HAPPY.  A total hit-and-run.  WTG, asswipe.

Cal State granted my proposal to toss my sucky grades, but they've still got a stinkin' hold on my account, so I can't register for classes.  I may end up working another semester, which I'd rather not do, considering I'm 24 and have been a Junior for the past three years.  I want to move on in my life, dammit.  I want to move out and do all the things adults do, and unfortunately it's not easy to do that in California because everything costs a frickin' fortune.

Mike's still a sweetheart.  We have our issues, but he really is the greatest guy evar.  I'm a total spaz and he's so laid back. I luvs hims.

I've been watching alot of anime at work lately.  I finished .hack//SIGN, which I really enjoyed considering I love MMORPGs.  I watched both the OAV and first (only?) season of the TV show of Ah My Goddess, rewatched Tenchi Muyo, Now and Then, Here and There, and Wolf's Rain, but that was a few months ago.  I've started Death Note, FMA, and Chrono Crusade and I'm waiting for FLCL to finish downloading.  Of course, Mike's seen all of these already.  We're perfect for each other, lol.


... Man, I feel shitty cuz of that PM accusing me of being a bitch when I can't remember a damn thing about this person.  Personally, I don't see how some artist on the internet can ruin someone's life.  The fact that it's been 5 years and they're still holding grudges says alot about the person's integrity if you ask me.

Do any of you know a "Lance Jones" or "BurningLJ"?   Doesn't ring a bell at all to me, but those who visited my messageboard might have a clue.
lunabuna: (luna - floaty icon)

Okay-- I get my artwork/characters/friends' characters stolen, and after repeated pleas for the perpetrator to stop/give proper credit, I finally snap and rant on my journal at DA.  Now suddenly I'm a bitch who wants to take credit for every goddamn thing EVER and can't handle the idea of someone having similar characters or whatever.


No... no, it's not like that.  It's more of me getting SO GODDAMN PISSED that she keeps GANKING SO, SO, SO many characters, poses, just overall images and being all "lol lookit what I did" about it without acknowledging the original source.  Credit is all I want.  I know there's such a thing as artistic ..... uh... crap, it's 3am and my vocab sucks.... artistic differences, or something, y'know, but when a handful of my original drawings are practically TRACED, maybe altered slightly and colored differently, it still irks me.


I illustrated all the strikes she had against her, but she's since taken down those images.  However, she missed a couple that I can still use to illustrate what little descrepancy she took.

Mind you, these are yoshi characters, and we're talking about a leap in style from images/characters such as these. ...Except for the one piece of fanart.  I drew that, like, 9 years ago.

Laina's original Jade yoshi. Note the date.
Yamoshi's first "original" character. Green shadings aside, they are practically IDENTICAL in character design.  Mind you, she didn't draw that specific image.  She took down all the ones she drew, in which I'd also asked her to stop ganking Laina's design and give proper credit.

Markior's yoshi character.  He's actually based on a protoss from Starcraft.  When Mark first asked me to draw his character for him, all he gave me was an MS Paint doodle of the white glowing eyes and said to make him smokey or something.  This is how I took that description and improvised.
Her "ghostly" yoshi.  Again... says it's completely hers, got the idea, y'know, not from here or anything.  Again, we're talking taking this design and somehow inventing this WITHOUT supposedly ever referencing this.  Except that we know she visits my deviantArt archive because of the practical identical copies of some of my pieces that she posted.


One of her buddies is calling me a bitch for calling it what it is, since he/she's seen her draw them by hand at school.  Dude, it doesn't matter if she drew it while referencing my artwork or not, it's STILL too similar to be a coincidence.


I know imitation is supposed to be the highest form of flattery, but to me, this is nothing more than someone who can't make it through Math class copying the answers off your test.  Oh, which then prompts both of you to get called to the principal's office to determine which of you was the copycat and which actually knew the material.  The other person insists they were innocent as much as you profess your innocence, so while they are the party deserving of punishment/negative recognition, you both end up with a mark on your record, but no actual punishment issued.

All because you were hit with the hard luck of sitting next to someone (or entering a fandom in which a person) can't cut it on their own.


I'm actually a lot calmer than I was earlier.  Some of the comments people left in response to my rant left me sobbing my eyes out.  Mike calmed me down, though, as he always does.  I just can't sleep right now because ... well, to reference my previous metaphor, I haven't got my grades back yet.


Using my floaty*luna icon to illustrate that yes, I can draw/animate without ganking ideas from somebody else.  Mind you, the character is a FANcharacter, so yes, she is a yoshi, but that's how fan characters work.  Bypass the whole yoshi part and take into account that I draw these freehand and try to deviate away from the original yoshi style as best I can.

lunabuna: (hp - blah - in denial)
Well, maybe I will read it.  Godawful epilogue aside, peeps seem to like it, so why not? I just won't be waiting in line for it anytime soon, 's all.
lunabuna: (hp - angry - i said it)
Huh.



Well, at least I don't have to buy the book now.
lunabuna: (wow - leuko yaaaaay)
I steal people's memes and totally get away with it.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Stephanie
2) Steph
3) Luna

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) LunaYoshi
2) YoshiZello
3) LunalovesCarbeh (rofl, oldschool)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) I gotz natural red hair and it's pritty
2) I'm a twig
3) I can draw what I want, mostly. Not necessarily WELL, but yeah, still...

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) I have way too many disorders
2) I'm prone to addiction and obsessing
3) Exercise makes me want to gouge my eyes out

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) confrontation
2) losing a loved one
3) being a worthless waste of skin

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1) pencil & paper
2) internet-compatible computer
3) uhhh... I guess world of warcraft

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) lime green babydoll shirt
2) brown cargo pants
3) that maroon-colored bra that Mike picked out for me and loves (hehe)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1) Coldplay
2) U2
3) Enigma

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1) Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
2) Andy Hunter - Life Light
3) A bajillion OCRemixes

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1) passing classes
2) going clubbing
3) getting a new computer, cuz this one is going on 5 years old.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1) Mike
2) Mike
3) Mike

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE IN NO ORDER-
1) uhhh... lessee... I have less than $300 in the bank right now to pay off my $1,200 car insurance bill and my $70 car registration fee.
2) I work too much.
3) I'm allergic to makeup.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Sensitivity
2) .... wait, PHYSICAL? Bleh, peeps ask me this ALL the time and really, there isn't any real physical feature that turns me on.
3) But the guy also has to be romantic.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1) Be comfortable at a party or some other social gathering.
2) Touch my toes. Ever.
3) Give up the internet

THREE THINGS YOU CAN DO:
1) draw stuff
2) stay loyal
3) not rip other artists off of their ideas.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) drawing
2) wowing
3) doing stuff with Mike

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) Naughty things to Mike
2) Get my Kara attunement on my Hunter
3) be not poor.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1) Animator <3
2) Psychologist
3) Social worker

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) ... uh... Europe, somewhere.
2) maybe Asia
3) and Australia... rofl

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) Get better at drawing
2) Animate something significant
3) Frickin' move out, get married, actually have a life.
lunabuna: (sonic - mighty plays gamecube)
Time for an update. Yey!

I saw OotP with da Mike this weekend.  As far as I know, we both liked it.  He's not a shipper in the least, but at least he understands my point of view on everything.  I noticed they took out my favorite scene, dernit... well, two of them, really: The part in the DoM where Hermione almost gets killed and Harry's all "ZOMG NO!!", and the part where ... Grupp? Gromm? What's his name?... did something and Harry pulled Hermione behind a tree.  Those parts made me squee, and... what? nuffin' in dis moveh? DAMMIT!

Instead we get R/Hr stuff that, as far as I can remember, didn't exist in the book. Woopee.  No offense to those who liked it, but c'mon...  Well, at least the R/Hr setup is more obvious to me now with those scenes.  I swear, I got absolutely NOTHING from the books except the fact that they drove each other nuts.  And I don't think that's a healthy relationship-in-the-works.

Draco's getting fewer and fewer scenes.  Poopie, huh, [livejournal.com profile] mea_panda? :( *huggles*


Yeah, anyway... my family asked me why I wasn't all excited about it like I used to be.  I told them how sick I was about the "politics of it" and left it at that because I don't think they care about all the fandom wars and all that.  Then they gave me a hard time for giving a shit about the "politics."  Thanks, family. Way to understand. e_e

Aaaaand... I actually attended my session at the Biofeedback center.  To treat my anxiety issues, they're going to 1. teach me a new breathing technique, 2. monitor my vitals in certain situations to see when I should use it, and 3. introduce exposure therapy to teach me how to use it in the approriate situations.  Exposure therapy isn't supposed to work for Sociophobes, but it's worth a try, I think.  There really isn't any other specialist in the area I can go to, so this is my last hope here.


I'd borrowed Mike's Final Fantasy Tactics Advance from him and have been playing it at work at at home for a couple of weeks now.  I beat it last night, but I'm still playing it because I want to finish all the missions.  Omg, stupid addicting strategy games!  .... But I love them anyway.


Sonic #177 is the shizzle, as always.  Ian has really breathed new life into the comic.

Oh yeah, and it took a couple of months, but my period FINALLY started.  I'm just glad I'm not preggers.
lunabuna: (garden state - blah drugs)
Heh... someone clipped out an article from the newspaper about a parent concerned for his son, whose grades are falling fast and all he does is play X-Box all day.  The advice collumnist told the father to take away the X-Box totally, blah blah blah, addiction is a problem, blah blah blah.

I think it was directed at me.  Robert thinks I spend way too much time at home in front of the computer.  I've explained the situation to Mom, and she understands, but I just think it's funny how ignorant he comes off.

If he's referring to computers in general, I've been doing computer stuff since I was 5.  If it's internet he's all on about, I've had the internet since 9th grade and my gpas were always 3.0+, not counting the semester I had Speech, which was a bitch for a sociophobe.  If he's referring to World of Warcraft, ... well, I've been playing MMORPGs since 12th grade, and only w/i the past year have my grades been slipping.  And it's not because I've been playing too much WoW. On the contrary, I play a heck of a lot less than I used to, much do Mike's dismay.  The reason I'm doing poorly is because I'M OFTEN TOO AFRAID TO GO TO CLASS.  That, and I have way too much trouble focusing on homework, which I've been known to have issues with since 7th grade.

It's probably Robert who put that article up.  Mom knows I do internet stuff because it's the only form of social interaction I can muster with anyone besides Mike.  If Robert prefers, he can take away the internet and/or my computer, albeit illegally, but he'll find all I do is sit in my room regardless.  Computer or no computer, I'm still petrified to go outside.


Speaking of outside, I went with Mom to a NAMI meating about psychological disorders and nutrition last night.  In the course of the walk of 20 feet from the car to the building, I got bit by a flea on my ankle.  Not even a full minute's worth of walking and I get bit!  ARGH!!  Fleas must DIE!
lunabuna: (Default)
What Be Your Nerd Type?
Your Result: Gamer/Computer Nerd

You enjoy the visual stimulants of a video game, chatting on AIM, or reading online comics. Most of these types of nerds are considered dirty who lack hygeine, of course they always end up being the ones who make a crapload of money. And don't worry, that's just a stereotype; I'm not calling you dirty. ^_~

Anime Nerd
Artistic Nerd
Social Nerd
Science/Math Nerd
Literature Nerd
Drama Nerd
Musician
What Be Your Nerd Type?
Quizzes for MySpace
lunabuna: (sonic - mighty is a cutie)
I went and saw my school councelor on Tuesday.  We've decided that I should petition for complete retroactive semester withdrawals for Spring 06 and 07 along with a plea to not boot me out of the school.  I have all the paperwork pretty much done, save for the three required signatures, and am going to turn it in tomorrow.

My monitor never fixed itself, so I ended up buying a flatscreen 19".  Not much of a difference from the old one, which was a BIGFATOLDSKOOLMONITOR but also 19 inches.  The only real difference is that my middle computer speaker is behind the monitor now instead of on top of it.

I'm glad I'm not feeling so crappy anymore.  That really bites.
lunabuna: (scotland pa - so... wrong! :))

This following poem is composed entirely of actual quotes from George W. Bush.

Make the Pie Higher

I think we all agree, the past is over.
This is still a dangerous world.
It's a world of madmen
And uncertainty
And potential mental losses.

Rarely is the question asked
Is our children learning?
Will the highways of the internet
Become more few?
How many hands have I shaked?

They misunderestimate me.
I am a pitbull on the pantleg of opportunity.
I know that the human being and the fish
Can coexist.

Families is where our nation finds hope
Where our wings take dream.
Put food on your family!
Knock down the tollbooth!
Vulcanize society!
Make the pie higher!
Make the pie higher!

lunabuna: (er - when I panic i make this face)
My monitor is dying on me!  It is flashing magenta colors with long, horizontal streaks!

Considering I've had it for 3 years and the person I got it from probably had it for who-knows-how-long, it only makes sense that it's finally dying.

And oh god, reading this as I type it is hurting my eyes AND my brain.  STOP FLASHING!


Argh, I'm poor and can hardly afford a new one.  I'm going to have to tap into my Wii funds, which does NOT make me happy at all. T_T
lunabuna: (sonic - bunnie sorry)
This is such a goddamn pain in the ass.  It looks like the only course of action is to tolerate it until it goes away, if it goes away.  It's driving me crazy, though, which isn't fun.  It sucks cuz there isn't an easy fix-- it requires all this therapy or personal strength, which I don't have much of.  It's like somebody up there is all "LOL HERE U GO KBYE" and sticking me with this crap to deal with, which is compounded by my other issues, and makes it that much harder to be a normal human being and lead a productive life.


Sheesh, and some people wonder how others can be suicidal.  Put up with this shit long enough and you'd understand.







and lawl, vagueness.
lunabuna: (sonic - bunnie "hoo-hah?")
Dude... is drawing anthropomorphic characters (e.g. Sonic the Hedgehog and similar fan characters) really that big a taboo?  I thought it only went as far as the peeps who drew them with genitals and doing each other and gross stuff like that.  But by drawing them as a preference over humans or anything else... is that weird?


Of course, half of my Flist are anthro artists, lol, so I dunno how biased replies will be, but a comment in [livejournal.com profile] fanartrants got me wondering.
lunabuna: (sonic - tails mopes)
Doing Canneh's gargantuan survey.

Read more... )
lunabuna: (wow - sasha's dance)
Long story short, since my GPA has been crap, I get kicked out of CSUSM unless I convince the board that I'm struggling in school because of certain hardships.  Mainly, psychological disorders.


So, my question to you guys is this:

Social phobia, agoraphobia, depression, and some undiagnosed sleep disorder-- good enough reasons to warrent them giving me more chances, or not?  What do you guys think?


And speaking of depression, I've been in a rut for a week or so now.  I can feel it, but I can also feel the Prozac fighting it off, but not in its entirety.  So, I end up kinda wavering between hopelessly depressed and okay.  That amounts so a nice, steady "blaahhh don't want to do anything but don't feel so downright bad that I want to off myself on the spot" kinda feeling.


Not to sound angsty, but I feel like my life is meaningless; like the things I want to do I can't do because I'm not qualified or able to, for one reason or another.  I couldn't live with myself if I ended up at a McDonald's job for the rest of my life. I gotta excel somehow, do something I love, make a difference.  I want to be an animator, or work with animals in some fashion, but it's like... I can't do either if I can't attend the classes instructing me how to because I'm too paranoid of being in public.  And even if they offer online courses, sometimes just the idea of coursework stresses me out, and the only way I know how to deal with such stress is to avoid it as best I can.

The only way I think I can do better is to either be able to focus on a topic I'm very passionate about (animation, cartooning, video games, animals), or find SOME way to counteract all this emotional crap I have stacked against me holding me back.  Unfortunately, both options are very expensive, and I'm poor.  Capitalism, ftl.


God, can NOTHING make me feel good? Frickin' art?  Talking to Mike?  Going outside?  Playing WoW?  God... I might as well take some drugs and go to bed early.  Being conscious doesn't have much value to me right now.

Using my dancing cheetah icon because it makes me feel slightly better.
lunabuna: (sonic - bunnie sorry)
.... um...

WTF, grades.
lunabuna: (scotland pa - fu :))
Well, I'm job searching atm, and I'm interested in a job with animals, like at the Wild Animal Park (an off-location of the San Diego Zoo, for you non-So. Cal peeps) or the Humane Society.

For those of you who don't live in Escondido (that would be... all but one of you, save Coral, who USED to live in Esco, but moved before the following incident occured), the Humane Society was originally located at Kit Carson Park.  It was a semi-old building, made of brick 'n all, but it had plenty of space around it for dog-walking and whatnot.  Well, in 2001, it caught fire and took dozens of innocent animals with it.

As I was looking through Google for possible job opportunities, I came across an article on their current funding issues with their new location and came to learn that they designated the fire as arson.





....OH FUCK NO.  SOME FUCKHEAD DECIDES TO BE A BITCH AND ALL THOSE ANIMALS DIED HELPLESSLY IN THEIR PENS????  THIS MAKES ME SO. FUCKING. PISSED.

THERE HAD BETTER BE A HELL SO THIS BASTARD CAN ROT IN IT FOR ALL ETERNITY.


When we adopted our first cat, Bob, awhile ago, at the front desk was an iguana that just kept the clerk company.  Articles covering the fire at the time made note to say that she didn't survive.  Fucking bastards.

Shit likes this makes me want to go on a murderous rampage.
lunabuna: (x-files - iX-Files)
News.

- Though I'm feeling better, I'm still quite the gimp from my butt bruise.  Walking is doable, but bending over or lifting my legs high are big no-nos.

- I went out with Mike's family after work at Pat 'n Oscar's, and on the way home, I bit Mike's finger out of affection.  This grossed out his sister to no end.  We both got a huge laugh out of it; him because he loves making his sister squirm, and me because usually he's the one who bites me somewhere. ...And that sounds quite sexual. I don't mean sexually, I mean playfully, like on the neck.

- We went and saw Shrek the Third. It was good. I didn't think it was quite as good as the last two, but it was still good.  His sister loved it because it had musical theatre in it, and she's a drama major.

- On the way home, we nearly hit a cat.  Mike's dad stopped the car quite fast to avoid hitting it, but dispite getting honked at, it didn't budge.  For a split second, we thought it was either one stupid or one very scared cat.  But then we realized it was just a cardboard cutout of a cat with dimes taped where eyes should be to immitate the reflection in  cat's eyes.  After the person behind us made the same mistake in honking at it, we decided it was a hazard, drove back around, and picked it up.  Someone could've been seriously injured if they'd swerved to avoid it and into oncoming traffic.  It's got to be the worst practical joke I've ever seen.  The only plus side is that we made 20 cents off it.

People can be so sick sometimes.

- I dreamt I was at this gathering at some ghost town in So. Cal somewhere.  It had to be relatively close to the "inland" area, because it had a defunct UCI branch.  I watched someone make a documentary about how people would die in this town, like walking off a very high cliff or something.  Some of the kids that attended were playing game where you were assigned a chemical element, like oxygen, chlorine, phosphorus, etc. and to win, you had to stab a person with the appropriate abbreviation (Cl, O, Ph).  So, kids were running around stabbing each other. Some died.  It was very disturbing.

So disturbing that I was completely freaked out and wanted to get out of there right away.  But the family that I traveled with insisted on browsing the gift shops.  They were particularly fascinated with a snowglobe simulating a war battle that wouldn't stop snowing or moving around until the anniversary of the occasion. I just thought it was creepy.

Then I dreamt I got two A's in my classes.  Heh, there's a good indication that I was dreaming.



Okay, I can't type anymore. I've reached my limit on sitting for the day.

PAIN.

May. 18th, 2007 05:47 pm
lunabuna: (er - aquatic mischief)
OH MY GOD.

I am such a DOOFUS.

I go to sit on the bed, I MISS, and slide right onto what would be the floor, but is instead the wheel of a computer chair.  Right on my stinkin' tailbone.

The pain is indescribable.  Moving my legs or twisting my torso sends agonizing pain through my lower body.  I've been pretty much bedridden since it happened because moving, walking, sitting, even laying in the wrong position hurts too much.

I'm not sure if I broke anything. Not like they could do anything about it if I did. Can't really put a cast on something like that.  Man, though, I have a deep purple bruise on the top of my butt, and I'm expecting it to get worse as time goes on.

And every time it hurts, all I can think about is that one E.R. episode where this guy in leather and a dominatrix go into the ER after the guy fell from a harnass from the ceiling.  The guy comments about his legs, forget what he said, and Susan, the doctor, says in the most casual tone... "You probably bruised your butt."

Back then I didn't know how that could be possible, but believe me, I KNOW NOW.  Susan, I bruised MY butt. :(


By the way, Season 7 is out on DVD now. Tempting... I told myself to just get 6, 7, and 8. I've got all of 9 and 10 on my harddrive in their original airings. And besides... Carby in those later seasons kinda sucked hard.
lunabuna: (yoshi - wobble)
I'm such a poseur, I had to give this a try.

Name a character and I'll tell you three (or more) facts about them from my own personal pseudo-canon/fanon.

Y'all know my fandoms. I'm on quite a bit of a Sonic kick, though, so if you wanna hit me up with a Sonic char, that'd be ideal, but do what you want.  For the record, I don't know jack about Silver, Mephiles, Elise, and very little of Blaze.  Someday when I'm not a starving college student, I'll get a 360 and be ka-nowledgeable.

Haha... nobody ever does my memes. I'll bet I'll get two responses to this thing, tops.
lunabuna: (sonic - mighty plays gamecube)
If anyone sees Sonic #175 on the stands or on a magazine rack or whatever.. BUY IT.

IT DOES NOT DISAPPOINT.  In fact, the awesome cover doesn't do it justice.  You don't even have to know what happened in past issues.  It's all irrelevant after the events in this issue.

Mighty... Ray... *tear*

Artwork behind cut )
lunabuna: (sonic - i could be here for WEEKS! :))
Jesus effing Christ, how're we supposed to buy Sonic SatAM DVDs if nobody carries 'em? I'm looking at YOU, Fry's, Circuit City, and Wal*Mart!

Target got 50 bonus points in my book.

Ohhhh, sweet fanart-covered DVD box... let me rub you against my cheek.  Ohhh yeah.  You're home now, baby.

Speaking of fanart, I gotta scan all this crap building up in my sketchbook.  I'm not near finishing any of it, but I haven't done much completed art as of late.  Going through the Knuckles comic series always gives me a ton of ideas because of all the undiscovered potential in the relationships between key characters.  For instance, I have my theories on why Spectre's such a hardass and why he wears that Snakeman helmet (...from Mega Man 3... yeah).  Also... where the FUCK is any plot behind the bagillion guardians' wives?  Maybe us die-hard fans are the only ones that care.


Heh, as I was driving home from Target... probably faster than usual, speed-limit breaking, even, might I add... I was thinking about how awesome the Knuckles comic was.  ...And how if I was going to be anybody's bitch... like, if I was going to have any sugardaddies, who'd it be? Frickin Pat Spaziante or Manny Galan, dude.  Alot of girls go for older men who're rich. I go for men who have badass artistic talent.  I'd totally let 'em have their way with me, too.

HA, like that'd happen, though. Just speculation.  Pat Spaz is my Hugh Heffner.  That image I linked to, by the way-- arguably the best piece of artwork in the comic's entire career.  So well drawn, so well colored, so moving, and it speaks volumes.  It makes my brain tingle.
lunabuna: (wow - leuko yaaaaay)
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