I know we don't know each other all *that* well, and I get the feeling you don't really like what I have to say most of the time, but I have uncontrollable big sister urges, so I'm going to tell you what I think. Your psychological problems may get you out of being expelled this time, but they're not going to keep working as excuses until you get them under control. (BTW, When I say excuses, I don't mean you're making them up and you should get over them. I mean they are THE reason you can't excel in school.) Anyway, no, you're not going to feel better until you get these problems effectively managed. I don't doubt that you're under some sort of psychiatric care but whatever it is, it's not working. You should start researching your conditions and looking for treatments you haven't tried and bring them to your doctor and make them give you options besides switching your drugs or whatever they're doing. If your doctor doesn't listen, find a new doctor. Women, especially young women, have statistically proven that doctors don't take them seriously. They are seen as hypochondriacs and drama queens.
You need to take a good long look at yourself and list the things that you want to get better, then do everything YOU can to make it happen. I don't know you well enough to "psychoanalyze" you, and I'm not accusing you, but is it possible that you use your disorders as a crutch? Here's an example-they could make you feel needy so that Mike has to take care of you, (which for some people, strengthens the relationship), or they could give you an excuse to fall short of your goals because they are so debilitating. I don't doubt you want to feel better, but maybe subconsciously, they absolve you of responsibility, so you're just waiting for them to disappear because when that happens, you'll have to step up to the plate, which scares the hell out of you and makes you even more anxious and depressed. So it's a huge cycle that's not going to stop until your disorders are cured. Sleeping, moodyness, listlessness and all the other symptoms only exacerbate the problem, but they'll go away when they are better managed. I think you should try to improve your standing at school, but before you go back, put all your energy into getting better. Since this is what I want to do for the rest of my life, I have *great* confidence that psychological disorders can be cured, or at the very least managed, and I just get the feeling that for you, you're barely hanging on. Sorry if i've presumed too much; I hope my advice helps, but I guess it can't hurt.
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You need to take a good long look at yourself and list the things that you want to get better, then do everything YOU can to make it happen. I don't know you well enough to "psychoanalyze" you, and I'm not accusing you, but is it possible that you use your disorders as a crutch? Here's an example-they could make you feel needy so that Mike has to take care of you, (which for some people, strengthens the relationship), or they could give you an excuse to fall short of your goals because they are so debilitating. I don't doubt you want to feel better, but maybe subconsciously, they absolve you of responsibility, so you're just waiting for them to disappear because when that happens, you'll have to step up to the plate, which scares the hell out of you and makes you even more anxious and depressed. So it's a huge cycle that's not going to stop until your disorders are cured. Sleeping, moodyness, listlessness and all the other symptoms only exacerbate the problem, but they'll go away when they are better managed. I think you should try to improve your standing at school, but before you go back, put all your energy into getting better. Since this is what I want to do for the rest of my life, I have *great* confidence that psychological disorders can be cured, or at the very least managed, and I just get the feeling that for you, you're barely hanging on. Sorry if i've presumed too much; I hope my advice helps, but I guess it can't hurt.